I’m a highly educated woman who has gone to collage, twice, and has even had jobs before but they weren’t because of my degree. They were the kind of jobs you get when you’re in high school or working your way through college to feed yourself.
But now, not only do I need to feed myself, but I want to move, I want to travel, I want to do so many things, in part with actually working and doing what I love.
I just recently graduated with my AS in Film Production. At this moment you’re rolling your eyes at me because how can this field be lucrative? Well, it isn’t unless you really make it. I want to write. You’re rolling your eyes again because if you’ve been following my blog, you know I don’t write much on here. However, I do write everyday whether it’s script or prose, for my portfolio which I’m hoping to hand off to some Exec in Hollywood that will be blown away my fantastic wit and sarcasm, and even some fanfiction that I post publicly. (No, I will not tell you my username so you can hunt it down.)
I’ve had several of my shorts filmed where I directed, and while not the greatest, they made me happy because I wrote them as well. I accomplished something. I’ve even produced other’s works and have worked on some low budget indie films as a First AD.
You’re now thinking “why the hell is she telling us this?”
Well, none of this matters! Even though I’ve had my fair share of experience in retail and customer service, in writing and research with my BA, and experience working/managing/leading people when it comes to the film projects I’ve worked on, none of it matters.
In the past two weeks alone I’ve applied to over thirty jobs, and have not heard back from any of them. Even with my resume all up to date listing everything I’ve done and my wonderful skills, my cover letter with anecdotes of my experience, I’ve got nothing. Nothing. Nada. Zilch.
So what does that say about out job market? Well, let me tell you some other things. Of my group of friends that hold seven of us that have film degrees, three of us are women, myself included, and four men.
A male friend, who we will call S, was recently hired for a job on a big budget movie here in South Florida (for secrecy’s sake I will not be naming which one) and when they asked him if he knew of any other people that would want to be production assistants, being that good friend that S is said yes, but guess what? They only wanted males, want to know why? Well, when asked it was because there was heavy stuff to lift, that obviously a woman like me who hasn’t packed a car full with lights, c-stands, and a steadicam kit (I have, in case you didn’t sense the hard sarcasm there), would never be able to help. Is that something that I should even put on my resume? Why do they assume that I wouldn’t be able to do this? At least ask me if I’m able.
Aside from the film stuff, there’s every other job that isn’t retail or customer service, that I have all the qualifications for in some form or another, but they don’t hire me because I don’t have enough experience. Experience? Are you kidding me?
Why don’t you let me gain that experience with you, Mr./Ms. Company (I don’t discriminate). It’s not like I’m going to divulge your trade secrets to anyone if I leave, and that’s a big if because if there’s an opportunity for growth, a good work environment, insurance, and other benefits, I’m with you for the long haul. I wouldn’t be applying for your job if I didn’t think I would be a good fit.
I’m a dedicated person, but this whole job search ordeal has put me in a depressed state, and kind of makes me want to give up and apply for that retail job that I have no desire at which to work. I’m only lucky that I have my parents to help me, but even then it’s not without strings attached. No matter how hard I try, my mother incessantly nags at me to find a job. Well, mother, apparently no one likes me enough, just like in 5th grade when I told on the mean girls for something they did and they didn’t talk to me for who the fuck knows how long. That’s right, HR people are the mean girls in fifth grade. I hope you can change my view of you all.
Don’t even get me started on the whole redundancy of the application process!!
So, did you have a similar experience? Are you finding difficulties that differ from me in the job market? I want to hear it all.