College Degree Does Not Equal “You’re Hired”

I is smart

I’m a highly educated woman who has gone to collage, twice, and has even had jobs before but they weren’t because of my degree. They were the kind of jobs you get when you’re in high school or working your way through college to feed yourself.

But now, not only do I need to feed myself, but I want to move, I want to travel, I want to do so many things, in part with actually working and doing what I love.

I just recently graduated with my AS in Film Production. At this moment you’re rolling your eyes at me because how can this field be lucrative? Well, it isn’t unless you really make it. I want to write. You’re rolling your eyes again because if you’ve been following my blog, you know I don’t write much on here. However, I do write everyday whether it’s script or prose, for my portfolio which I’m hoping to hand off to some Exec in Hollywood that will be blown away my fantastic wit and sarcasm, and even some fanfiction that I post publicly. (No, I will not tell you my username so you can hunt it down.)

I’ve had several of my shorts filmed where I directed, and while not the greatest, they made me happy because I wrote them as well. I accomplished something. I’ve even produced other’s works and have worked on some low budget indie films as a First AD.

You’re now thinking “why the hell is she telling us this?”

Well, none of this matters! Even though I’ve had my fair share of experience in retail and customer service, in writing and research with my BA, and experience working/managing/leading people when it comes to the film projects I’ve worked on, none of it matters.

In the past two weeks alone I’ve applied to over thirty jobs, and have not heard back from any of them. Even with my resume all up to date listing everything I’ve done and my wonderful skills, my cover letter with anecdotes of my experience, I’ve got nothing. Nothing. Nada. Zilch.

Recent grad hiring

So what does that say about out job market? Well, let me tell you some other things. Of my group of friends that hold seven of us that have film degrees, three of us are women, myself included, and four men.

A male friend, who we will call S, was recently hired for a job on a big budget movie here in South Florida (for secrecy’s sake I will not be naming which one) and when they asked him if he knew of any other people that would want to be production assistants, being that good friend that S is said yes, but guess what? They only wanted males, want to know why? Well, when asked it was because there was heavy stuff to lift, that obviously a woman like me who hasn’t packed a car full with lights, c-stands, and a steadicam kit (I have, in case you didn’t sense the hard sarcasm there), would never be able to help. Is that something that I should even put on my resume? Why do they assume that I wouldn’t be able to do this? At least ask me if I’m able.

Aside from the film stuff, there’s every other job that isn’t retail or customer service, that I have all the qualifications for in some form or another, but they don’t hire me because I don’t have enough experience. Experience? Are you kidding me?

Experience before I get experience

Why don’t you let me gain that experience with you, Mr./Ms. Company (I don’t discriminate). It’s not like I’m going to divulge your trade secrets to anyone if I leave, and that’s a big if because if there’s an opportunity for growth, a good work environment, insurance, and other benefits, I’m with you for the long haul. I wouldn’t be applying for your job if I didn’t think I would be a good fit.

I’m a dedicated person, but this whole job search ordeal has put me in a depressed state, and kind of makes me want to give up and apply for that retail job that I have no desire at which to work. I’m only lucky that I have my parents to help me, but even then it’s not without strings attached. No matter how hard I try, my mother incessantly nags at me to find a job. Well, mother, apparently no one likes me enough, just like in 5th grade when I told on the mean girls for something they did and they didn’t talk to me for who the fuck knows how long. That’s right, HR people are the mean girls in fifth grade. I hope you can change my view of you all.

Don’t even get me started on the whole redundancy of the application process!!

Give info twice, why

So, did you have a similar experience? Are you finding difficulties that differ from me in the job market? I want to hear it all.

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The Big Frozen Gumshoe

This summer I’ll be working on a feature film with some good friends of mine, Josh Brady (Producer), Katherine Wilson (Director) and Shelby Halberg (Director of Photography), titled “The Big Frozen Gumshoe” a comedy-mystery film about a 1940’s PI who is mysteriously frozen only to be defrosted in the future. It’s a classic case of the whodunnit but with a good mix of comedy. (How do cellphones work?)

We’ve found one of our leads, Kid, who will be played by Braden Bullard, an aspiring local actor of Palm Beach County, FL. We’re still looking for our other lead, Detective Dick. P.I.E. but we’re confident we’ll find the perfect Dick.

We’ll be filming around Palm Beach County as well, since we’re trying to keep it local. The crew will consist of either current or graduated students from Palm Beach State College, most of whom are great friends of mine. They’ve got some raw talent.

Right now we’ve got a Kickstarter up, and with just 4 days to go, we haven’t reached our goal yet. So if you’re interested or want to find out more, please click the link here. We’re giving away some great prizes for our backers of different levels, so please check it out. The best prize level is going for $100, where not only do you get your name in the credits of our movie, but you get a blu-ray/DVD/digital download of the movie, a T-Shirt, the script, but also an original piece of artwork such as the one pictured above. Going higher up the levels, you can also get a movie poster, have your picture featured in the film(a cameo), or if you really want to go big, you can have an associate or executive producer credit in the film if you decide to be one of our biggest backers.

So please check out the Kickstarter page, and at the very least, donate $5 and get your name in the credits.

We’re hoping to make a great movie, not only for ourselves but for all of you out there donating and watching. So please help us make this movie!

You can follow us on Facebook or Twitter for more information, or if you just want to read some dick jokes then go directly to Twitter.

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Je Suis Charlie

Even though I’m two weeks late in recognizing this, I still want to expel my thoughts. I think it should just be a reminder that some parts of the world aren’t as forward thinking as other parts.

Charlie Hebdo is a French satirical weekly newspaper,  featuring cartoons, reports, polemics, and jokes. Irreverent and stridently non-conformist in tone, the publication describes itself as strongly anti-religious, anti-racist and left-wing, publishing articles on the extreme right, religion (Catholicism, Islam, Judaism), politics, culture, etc. Something Similar to The Onion here in the U.S.

On January 7th, 2015, two gunmen forced their way in and killed 12 people: staff cartoonists Charb, Cabu, Honoré, Tignous and Wolinski, economist Bernard Maris, editors Elsa Cayat and Mustapha Ourrad, guest Michel Renaud, maintenance worker Frédéric Boisseau and police officers Brinsolaro and Merabet, and wounding eleven, four of them seriously.

President François Hollande described it as a “terrorist attack of the most extreme barbarity”. The two gunmen were French Muslim brothers of Algerian descent. I’m not even going to name their names because how dare they get to be remembered for this tragedy? No. Fucking. Way. (I’d like to note that we need to stop pushing the names of murderers and terrorists into the media because they want that. I’ve actively made myself to forget the names of school shooters or rampaging gunmen because they need mental help and not from the media.)

Do all people in the entertainment industry have to worry about their lives now if they make fun of someone else? Do I need to watch my back after I’ve written something horrible about horrible people? No one should have to. This is what we do to bring joy to others, not to live in fear that someone is going to come after us.

There is always freedom of speech but not freedom to murder. I don’t just go around wielding a knife like a mad woman if the people at Panera don’t make my salad correctly. (Btw Panera, you’ve always made my salad right.)

Why does everything always have to end up in violence for some groups of people? I’m not just singling out the Islamic terrorists either. I’m talking about the war lords in Africa, the serial killers in the U.S. and other places, and that big baby, North Korea. There are more to mention but lets keep it somewhat civil.

We as the human race need to get over this petty shit, and focus on what’s right now. We need to focus on life and the daily grind. If some people weren’t so impressionable or gullible, go to school, or would read a fucking book once in awhile, then maybe we would have less of these incidents.

If you have a problem with what myself or anyone else has to say about this just call (785) 273-0325 or tweet them here: @WBCSaysRepent. They would love to hear your problems and are probably more your speed.

Question of the Day: What’s your response to Charlie Hedbo? Will you keep fighting the good fight with your words?

Je Suis Charlie, thank you bringing laughter and light into this world. May those people we lost be remembered. (This does not discount the loss that is thrust upon the world daily in other acts of violence, whether singular or massive.)

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Help! The Procrastinator In Me Needs to Die

I’ve done the whole college thing once already by getting my Bachelors in History and Social Science. So of course I chose to put myself through it again after two years of not being in school by getting my AS in Motion Picture Production. Having to through the rigmarole of classes and projects for he past year and a half, I’m almost done.

This is my last semester, yet it’s the first semester where my procrastination is finally troubling me. Usually, I’ve been so good with controlling it but the past few months it’s been a real toll on my psyche.

I’m going to blame the internet.

My self diagnosed A.D.H.D. is triggered by all things entertaining on the internet. Even this blog is preventing me from doing my actual work. How am I going to function in the world if I can’t beat this?

Netflix,, books and TV, these are just some of my favorite things. Maybe if I try making more lists. I like lists. But it’s the after the lists part that’s not so fun. It’s my perpetual need to always do something that entertains my brain, not exercises it. It really is sad, but I can’t help it. I’m part of this Generation Like, at least a little bit.

I need help. Serious help. So much work. It just keeps piling.

I guess I’ll try to go do stuff. Hopefully that fanfiction doesn’t jump me out of nowhere. Huge possibility.

Question of the Day: How do you beat procrastination?

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This Girl Can

Self worth. We all have it, whether its positive or negative. Personally, my self worth fluctuates, though it’s usually on the more positive side.

For me it’s usually the about my body. Yeah, I’m on the thicker side and I used to be so down about it. Well, you know what? Just because I’m fat, doesn’t mean I’m unhealthy, and just because someone is skinny, doesn’t mean they’re healthy. I’ve been to see different doctors over the course of my life and other than the usual posturings and discussing how I’m overweight, I’m also otherwise perfectly healthy.

I’m bringing this up now is because it’s something I’ve always wanted to talk about but have been embarrassed to go ahead and do so. Why are you bringing this up now, Carol? Well, dearest readers it’s for two reasons.

Reason #1: A few weeks ago my aunt bought me this top from India, and it’s really pretty and could be comfy, if only it went over my boobs right. Yeah, I got boobs, and I love them. Of course, when I told my mom this she went ahead and told me I need to lose weight. Thanks for making me feel better mom. Note the sarcasm on that.

Reason #2: Was actually this video that my friend had shared on Facebook. She’s a big girl like me and I’m so glad to have her in my life.

Now this video along with reason #1 just got me thinking. Why do we bring ourselves down just because of how our bodies look?

Yup, you guessed it. Societal norms. Well, you know what I say to societal norms? Fuck. Them. I’m beginning to not care what other people think. I get to decide if this dress will look good on me or not, and it won’t be influenced by anyone but myself. If that cute guy at the register wants all of this, then sure, why not? If he doesn’t, well then on to the next one. This should also be applied to guys.

If there’s one thing I’ve learned in my life on this planet, is that there is someone for everyone. Everyone is attracted to different things, so be who you want to be, live how you want to live, and do what you want to do. (In legal or semi-legal parameters, please.)

So I just saw something on Buzzfeed today, and thought it worked in tandem with the topic of this post. To all the ladies (and men) out there, you should totally try what this lovely woman did, and broadcast who those scumbags are that don’t know how to act around a confident person other than to push them down when they show their pride in themselves.

Questions of the Day: What part of youself, mental or physical, do you hate the most? Why? Now write those things on a piece of paper along with the following sentences, “I’m giving up my self hate, and so should you. Pass it forward.” (Don’t sign your name), fold it up, and do one of the following: place it in a random mailbox on your street, go to a bookstore and place it in a random book, leave it at your table in a restaurant, or somewhere that a stranger would find it. Not only will you make yourself feel better, but maybe you’ll make someone else feel better too. Pass it forward.

P.S. I wanna give some love to a friend of mine who is just started making how-to YouTube videos. She’s a cute little thing and she’s a recent friend who I’ve bonded with. Below is her second video she’s posted, so like and subscribe. I want to motivate her to make more videos and get better at it.

P.P.S. Because I’m a gunning to be a fame whore, here’s a short that I wrote and directed last summer, titled “S.S. Awkward”. The one I did last fall will be posted shortly when I get my shit together. So enjoy!


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Where the hell have I been?

I’ve been traveling with the Doctor. Yup, you read that right. I’ve been traveling with the Doctor in the TARDIS. Oh the adventures he’s taken me on. He’s my new addiction and I’m loving him. He’s got such great hair.


It’s been over a year since I’ve posted?! That’s just not acceptable. I guess I’ve been spouting all my thoughts out on Twitter. It’s an art to get a thought out in 140 characters or less. I’ve been managing but sometimes it’s just way too difficult. I’m amazed at people’s witty comments and I aim to be like them, or better!!

Since I last posted I’ve experienced a lot. 

I’ve been fired for something stupid and I’ve learned from my mistakes. I’m a better person. Blah, blah, blah.

I applied and got rejected from graduate school. It’s all good, I wasn’t really doing it for the right reasons.

I got a job at a family friend’s business, and I hated it because I now see them differently, in a negative way. I did, however, make a really good friend that introduced me to the Doctor, so I love her for that.

I’ve discovered my path. I want to work in film. Whether I’m writing, directing, or just being a PA on set. I love it all. I have to thank my friend Riley who first introduced me to the program. It’s because of her that I’ve found what I want to do and where I want to be. Of course while I’m thanking people, and it may be odd that I say this, but I gotta thank JLaw and ISom because I love all the work they do on their movies and shows. 

I’ve made many friends through the film life, friends that I know will also be coworkers and people I can network through. I know who I can trust and who I can’t. I’ve finally learned to listen to my brain on what I want and how I should force myself to get it. After a year of being in the Film Program at the state college, I’ve learned more about people, passion and drive than I have in the universities I’ve attended. 

In the last year and a half I’ve grown as a person. I’ve secluded myself into a cocoon and emerged as a butterfly, with somewhat crooked wings. I’ve made friends. I’ve lost loves. I’ve shared laughs. I’ve had dreams crushed and new ones built. I’ve met Ian Somerhalder, which really made up for all the bad stuff. I’ve been rebuilt and I’m much happier for it. 

Am I at my highest? No. Do I intend to get there? Of course, why the fuck should I answer that any other way. Actually, why would anyone give a different answer to that.



Question of the day: What inspires you to be the best you can be? 

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Non Father-Daughter Bonding

I’ve recently been avoiding my dad, as in just talking to him. I’ve been at home a lot recently and my need to do something is great. But after what happened to me with my job, I just can’t seem to find that passion.

My dad, I know, must be thinking that I just need to go out there. But figuring out what I want to do isn’t easy. He still has the old way of thinking that you should just do something to provide for yourself. I agree to an extent but I still want to do something that will make me happy. My dad doesn’t believe in the whole “I don’t know what I want to when I grow up thing” at the age of 24. Apparently I should know what I want to do already and be going for that.

I just have no idea what I want. Anyone else having this same problem? Anyone already go through this and what helped you most? Just a shred of wisdom on this would be most appreciated.

P.S. sorry for the non satirical of comedic post. This is just something that has been with me for the past week.

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